Say you forgive me

I'm not sorry for the times I tried to protect you even though it involved lying to you.
I'm not going to apologize for those times I said "I love you with all my heart".
And, of course, I'm not thinking about leaving you without an explanation.

But the truth is that I don't have a good one.
I ran out of excuses.

And, here I am.
Apologizing myself.
Thinking about leaving you.
Saying that I'm sorry.

I guess,
finally,
I realize there is no such a thing like an explanation for this.

I have to go.
And you can't follow me.

I hope one day you'll understand.
Likely.
Maybe.
Probably not.

At the end,
all you have to know about me is that
I loved you so much that I loved you more than I loved myself.